blog I wrote last year.....

when you look away for a split second....your daughter is a senior!!!

yeah, that is pretty much how it is.....or so it seems....look away and bam they are getting ready to leave.....whats the deal with that!!?? yes I know its all apart of growing up....but what I want to know is where did that little inquisitive girl go? you know the one that thought you walked on water, and asked you about everything...."mommy how do birds fly? why do fish swim? why don't you like my pet spider? Look over there mommy!!!" and you look, and look back....and the little inquisitive girl is now a young woman getting ready to leave you and get on with her life.....makes you look back and wonder if you did right by her? did you instill the right values? did you let her know that it is ok to have your own opinion? and that you can do anything at all if you set your mind to it!!! I think I have....but there are times when I am not so sure......you know the times when Mom could possibly never ever know what it is like to have your heart broken....or a friend totally betray you....how could you know this your my mom......Well darling....mom was not always a mom...and gasp....was actually once in your shoes!!! I know I have done some right things for sure.....she would give her life for her brothers and sisters.....that is a given....even when she is griping about them and being their other mother....I know this fall when she is by herself in her dorm room....she will be missing them tremendously!!! and I think deep down she knows that.....so even though I looked away for that split second and she went from 2 to 17 in a blink of an eye.....and she will be gone from my daily sight....she definitely will not be out of mind!!! and when she enters this big bad world and feels like it is getting the best of her, she can always come home and drop her guard and just be the little inquisitive girl I once knew........