yes, I am at it again....4 days left

those that read my blog...the whole four of you.....LOL I am sure you are tired of my blogs already. but I find them helpful, at a not so easy time right now....in a mere 4 days my daughter is leaving the only home she has ever known and going off to college and I have to say that scares me a lot!! I know that she knows we will always be here for her, that we did "good" by her, that we raised her right and all the other things that people say....my brain knows this, it really does, BUT my heart, that's a different story.....it does not care that we raised her right, it does not care that she is only a phone call, instant message, web cam view, email away....it just knows that she is going to be GONE, AWAY, OUT OF SIGHT, NOT HERE....and it HURTS....yeah, that about covers it....its an ache that I cannot describe, and only until you experience this first hand will you fully understand.....I for one never dreamed it would "feel" this way....never, I thought sure I would feel sad....but the "ache" I feel is a mean ass feeling....its just something that is there and really does not want to go away....I will do my best to keep my chin up and be strong for her, and as we are driving away then and only then will I totally lose it!!! at least I HOPE I can accomplish that!!!