Mama Kats Assignment....

Choose a prompt:

1.) The last time I laughed really hard...
2.) Forgive and forget...I think.
3.) I remember when...
4.) Write about something that bothered you this week.
5.) Write a poem about a favorite color.

my choice is number 1, I could have done number 2, but...number 1 is more prevalent in my life right now....

I really don't remember the last time I laughed really really hard......these past few weeks in my life have been not so what you would call "laughing moment worthy" as I sit here and type this out....I am really racking my brain trying to remember....and sadly I cannot...if you read previous posts on my blog you will know what has been going on in my life these past 3.5 weeks and why I really don't have a lot to laugh really hard about...

I know life goes on, and you need to laugh really hard sometimes, but I have yet to find that moment to laugh really hard....maybe with my daughter coming home this week I will, but that is doubtful, because she was not here for her Uncle's funeral, and she has had a very hard time with it, and wants to say her goodbye when she comes home....and I have to be strong for her!! I have had to be strong for all of my kids, and man...sometimes that is HARD...our little girl this week has been with the vet because she got very sick....(see post below) and we have been doing all we can because I cannot bear to have her die so close to my children's uncle, that would just be way too much!!!

well to get back on topic....and stop my inane rambling..I just don't remember the last time I laughed really hard.......

How much are you willing to spend on a pet?

I ask this because our "little girl" Tee wee is in the doggy hospital right now....she had a seizure and honestly I thought she was going to die.....it was awful!!! we took her to the vet and she was really dehydrated and had an infection....so in went the IV fluids and antibiotics....he said that it should help her white cell count to come down, and her red cell count to come up....well that didn't happen......so, it has been determined that she will need a hysterectomy done....and the other choice.....she will die....

yeah tough choice there.....for some maybe....but for us....it was a no brainer!! she is our little itty bitty girl and if this is going to save her life then we HAVE to do it. she is Madisyn's dog, and with losing her Uncle just a few weeks ago, I could not let her dog die too.....that is just way too much for a 10 year old to handle imo.

so, the grand total for the dog.....$2021.00 dollars!!!!!!!!! yes you read that right.....two grand to save her life.....some think we are nuts for doing it for "just a dog" but she is not just a dog, she is a member of the family, and well as I stated to people, "you would do anything for your child wouldn't you?! well to US she is our child, and we will do all we can to save her!!" of course some have said, it is so not the same....but to each their own....I could not in my heart of hearts let the dog die!!! no way, could I live with myself knowing I did not do everything I could to save her. As my dad said, its only money....and if it makes your daughter smile with happiness because you cared enough to save her dog, then DO IT!! LOL

If there were any doubts at all my DH said that when he went in the last time to see her before he left, her looking at him the way she did was all he needed to know he was doing the right thing!!! He is such a good man!!! and I knew there was a reason I married him!!!

When was....................

the last time you had a YOU day? I do not remember it.....really I don't, I know some find this hard to believe, but I tend to put my kids needs first....always have and probably always will....I come in a distant........whatever.........I don't' even know my placement in life!! sad but true!!

I don't do the girls weekend....because quite frankly *my* idea of a relaxing Saturday or Sunday is watching Football!!! and most woman don't!! LOL My husband says I am a unique girl because I like all the sports, and enjoy watching them, could sit and be happy watching sports center....and I don't worry about makeup, getting my nails done....in fact...I have never had a manicure, pedicure, message, hair colored.....or any of the girly things....so I guess I cannot miss what I never had....I am such a non female person....heck I know men that are more feminine than me!!!!!!!!

well, I guess my when was.....got a little off topic, and out there....but hey...isn't that what these blogs are for...........

Blog Peace....

Now come on all you blogging queens let's join together and let everyone know we won't stand for drama, we won't stand for blocking people from our sites, we won't stand for being immature, we won't stand for bashing other blogs...because we stand for BLOG PEACE!

We come here to have fun, to win stuff, to learn about others and thank God that someone else's child is not ours when we see him/her doing something naughty! It's a place to be yourself and share who you are with tons of people and brighten other peoples day.

Who's with me, who out there in bloggy land is tired of the blog bullies? Who out there is tired of the mean girls in the blog world?~And I will be the first to admit I was a mean girl to one blogger in the past and I am so very sorry for what I did~

Who wants to stand up and say "We want blogging to be fun again", "We want blogging to be about friendships?", "We want to not have to look over our shoulder and wonder if we are going to be blogged about". Let's stand together today and say to everyone out there in blog land "We Promote Blog Peace" and we want everyone to just get along.

I have been in Mourning....

that is why I have not blogged in quite awhile....My dear Cousin died suddenly at the age of 34. He was the director of my son's preschool, and my fellow iphone buddy....these past 2 weeks have been pure HELL I will not lie about that....it has been awful, I mean really it has just been bad....knowing in your head he is gone forever and never coming back, but....in your heart you cannot help but HOPE it was all just a bad dream and he is still here on earth....

I think in a lot of ways it would have been easier to deal with if we knew it was coming....and if we had time to prepare our son....but how do you prepare a 3 year old to understand death? that I do not know....he still does not completely understand....he woke up one morning last week and asked "mommy, can I draw a picture?" I said sure, who do you want to draw a picture for? he said "for Uncle Ralph so it will make him feel better and he can come back to us!!" I lost it...could not stop the flood of tears from flowing.....my poor poor boy just does not get it at all....and how can I possibly expect him too? That in itself has to be one of the hardest things to ever have to try to explain to a child....Death....gone, never coming back again, in Heaven with God....an Angel watching over us....

I try to think of the good times we had growing up...all of the trouble we got into as kids....and that is a good thing....remembering those times....but also sad because we lost such a great and lovable person....someone that devoted his life to kids, and truly caring about "his kids" he was a big guy, he looked like he could easily be intimidating, threatening just by his presence alone, but he was the most gentle teddy bears ever!!! and I will forever miss him!!!