T minus 28 days.......

As parents when we have our kids we hold them close as newborns and wonder.....what their lives are going to be like in 18 years, where they are going to go to college, what are they going to be etc......well I can tell you one thing for sure.....18 years have gone by in the blink of an eye...if you look below at my wordless Wednesday posting....you can see the little wide eyed 3 month old baby grew up into a HS graduated young lady....and is now heading off into the proverbial sunset to start her own life.....I am so very proud of her, she is doing what this mother never did...go to college....I had no desire to further my education...NONE ZERO ZILCH....I had no idea what I wanted to be when I grew up other then to be a mother....some may say that's such a lack of "desire" or whatever on my part, but....my life my choice....well her life her choice, and she made the right one....she is off to further her education so she can have a career first then have kids....at least that is her goal....I think back over the past 18 years and wonder.....WOW where did the time go? wasn't it just yesterday that she came and asked me "mommy, when will I be bigger like you?" or "mommy, I can tumble!!! watch me watch me!!!" now she is about to tumble right out of my daily life and move on....I know its apart of life, but nobody said it would be this hard....nobody told me that when you are about to let your first born go off to college, that it would literally break your heart in two....she is a good kid and I know we raised her well, she was not a hell raiser, never got into trouble like some of her other friends, but.....there is the part of me that just would like her to be the little girl that crawled up on my lap and said "I love you mommy, your my best friend" and not leave us......