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Monday, September 15, 2008

I guess I will never understand

MEN!!!

or husbands. I guess men in a lot of ways....why is it so hard to be happy? why can you admit when you are not happy!?! why can you not own up to it? you just say "I never said I wasn't happy" but then all your actions, speak and such say it all too clearly!!! but you expect everyone to just accept that you are happy and go lucky and just plain over the moon....when you are clearly NOT.

I guess I just do not understand....they say men don't understand woman...well that works both ways....my dh and I do have a good marriage, but there are times when I just do not understand the man....at work he is completely different.....seems personable, nice, pleasant, understanding and omg happy!!! BUT when he walks thru that door it is something completely different, he turns into the 'not happy guy' that we know and not love so much....the running joke (I know not mature at all) we have is "he gets paid to be concerned and nice at work, so thats why he does it!! LOL yeah that does not go over well, but at this point in time, honestly I am at a loss as to what to do with him....because he is a far cry from the man I married.....but I am not giving up on him don't get me wrong......I just want to know the inner workings of the male mind!!! not that that will help me in the least!!!

I just had to get this out, and that is what my blog was for, getting out the frustrations of living on an island in Alaska.....and this is a big frustration right now.......any ideas out there?

Friday, September 5, 2008

The republican vp candidate......

When I first heard that McCain picked Gov Palin, I was like OMG!!! Holy S**t!!! WOW!! McCain made a damn good choice!!! smart cookie that he is.... (well as you may have figured it...I like McCain) I was in total amazement that our gov was picked to be the VP for the republicans. I know she did a lot of good things in our state first and foremost she stepped up to the plate and pushed for an energy rebate for the resident's of Alaska to help with the high cost of heating oil here in the rural areas of the state, upwards of $9-$12 a gallon!!! yes you read that right people.... for a measly hundred gallons of heating oil it costs between 900 and 1200 dollars for just that amount.....and where it gets really really cold that lasts less than a month!!! with our natural resources here in Alaska and the surplus to our budget, she felt why not let every eligible Alaskan get money to help with their skyrocketing energy costs....if the big oil companies are making the money why not let the residents benefit!?! she fought long and hard for this, and it was finally passed on the last day of the session, just before the deadline....because she told them to find a way to make it work....and they did.....once she gets her nails into something especially for the people she does not back down....she knows what it is like to have to struggle to pay bills, and felt that it was the least the state could do....now with the idea of hunting and fishing....well people take exception to that....why I do not understand...HELLO we are in Alaska....it is a way of life here!!! For some people it is the ONLY way they get any sort of meat for the long winter months....they hunt deer, caribou, moose, elk, they hunt for FOOD....its not a sport, it is a necessity to survive here in Alaska....I have family that Hunts....We Fish!! because it is a subsistence for us....and honestly for some in my family it is for their survival....because if they did not have the deer and fish in their freezer they would not eat during the winter....nope they cannot afford to go to the grocery store and pay the HIGH prices for meat....they stock up when it is hunting and fishing season because it is a Necessity.....Yes I know she was the governor and why on earth would she hunt when she could have had a personal chef...oh yeah that's right she cut him loose, because it was a luxury that was unnecessary....she would hunt to help her family get meat for the winter, and omg....give to those in need!?!?! wow what a selfish biotch she is!!! I mean really.....give to those less fortunate????? the biotch!!! She has 5 kids....well nothing really to say on that other than....THANK GOD someone else does too!!!!!!! LOL but really the thing that irks me to no end is how because she does not stay at home with her kids that she is a bad parent!!! Now come on.....seriously?!? your gonna go there?!?!? Yup they did go there....well if having kids and a career is a bad thing, then all you woman out there that think its totally her putting her career before her kids better be ready for some harsh words!!! I am not a career woman, and honestly after all of these years of being a "mom" I have never been so ashamed to be a woman.....here is a woman with the chance to be the very first VP of America, and all some can do is bash her for "not putting her family first"!!! are you in their marriage? were you there when Todd and Sarah discussed this? I think not, so you know maybe he is more than ready to be the VP's guy...I mean he is already the first dude of the state of Alaska...why not be the Vice president's first dude?! I for one can say that if she does make it in, I am so happy that my girls will get to see a WOMAN in such a high ranking place in this Government of ours!! and maybe it will just make them think....damn if Sarah from Alaska can be the vice president....then why can't I!!!! and all you naysayers out there.....why can't one of my daughter's be the next woman vp!!!?? I mean just because you have kids does not make you any less of a person.....shouldn't limit you on what you can do with your life....now on to the 17 year old daughter being pg...OMFG!!! how dare the mother of that girl dare to want to be the veep!!! I mean she cannot even take care of her own home, how in the hell is she supposed to take care of the USA!?!?! is that how it goes?! I am going out on a limb here w/speaking that trash...because I cannot believe that people are actually saying this shit!!! Life happens, you cannot control every move your child makes!! you are not there with them every second of the day, and the best you can do is to teach your child to abstain from having sex, because that is the ONLY fool proof way of your dd not ending up pg!! because even if you gave them BC pills they are not 100% effective!! have you read the label lately? so teaching your child abstinence is a good thing....and 99.9% of the time they are not going to listen to you....you hope and pray they will....but teenagers usually don't...did YOU listen to everything your parents told you....did you abstain?! I in my total naive mom status thought sure my kid would never do this....I taught her better than that, I told her to wait for the RIGHT guy, and thought I had done it....only to have my world shattered that she DID NOT wait for the Right guy.....talk about a slap in the face......thank god she did not end up pg with the loser guy she chose......but I can tell you from experience that just because you say so, it isn't always so!!! So for those that are out there bashing on her for not teaching her daughter to wait....shame on you....those of you without sin, or faulty parenting practices please feel free to cast the first stone....I can't throw stones....I am a faulty parent too!!! there...I had to get this off my chest....I have in the last week heard too much for me to keep my mouth shut...and had to get it out of my system.....before I exploded!! LOL

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Gotta say one thing...........

Woman from Alaska have some balls!!!

Go Palin!!! and wear the lipstick proud you pitbull you!!!

Don't mess with the best or you will lose like the rest!!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

yes, I am at it again....4 days left

those that read my blog...the whole four of you.....LOL I am sure you are tired of my blogs already. but I find them helpful, at a not so easy time right now....in a mere 4 days my daughter is leaving the only home she has ever known and going off to college and I have to say that scares me a lot!! I know that she knows we will always be here for her, that we did "good" by her, that we raised her right and all the other things that people say....my brain knows this, it really does, BUT my heart, that's a different story.....it does not care that we raised her right, it does not care that she is only a phone call, instant message, web cam view, email away....it just knows that she is going to be GONE, AWAY, OUT OF SIGHT, NOT HERE....and it HURTS....yeah, that about covers it....its an ache that I cannot describe, and only until you experience this first hand will you fully understand.....I for one never dreamed it would "feel" this way....never, I thought sure I would feel sad....but the "ache" I feel is a mean ass feeling....its just something that is there and really does not want to go away....I will do my best to keep my chin up and be strong for her, and as we are driving away then and only then will I totally lose it!!! at least I HOPE I can accomplish that!!!